Dark Life

All I see is blue.
Darker shades, surrounding my pupil.
I'm a bit tense, a little shaky.

Every feeling I have, is only numb.
I can't even think straight.
My mind is frozen, absolutely stuck.

It's a possibility, that this is depression.
A side effect of too much medication.
Maybe even slightly hormonal.

Everything I look at, turns to gray.
If I see a cloud, it's been washed away.
Even the ocean looks dull to me.

Trying to cheer me up, makes me angry.
There isn't a day when I can act normal.
Something holds me back, is it that I'm a bit insane?

Black, and white is the way I work.
I've never had a day that was just okay.
It's either up, or down.

Life is a struggle for me, most days.
My world is darker than the rest.
And, only I am to blame.